oh november..

this year's been a rough one. it's tested me in ways that i never would have wished for. it's hard for me to believe that i've lasted this long without breaking, but i remember a few times where i was very close.
its almost over though..lets hope we all make it, and that next year is better. because i don't know how much more my heart or my sanity can take.

it's called "tough love."

youre just being stubborn, fortunatly i can be just as stubborn as you.
i'm not sorry that i care, i'm not willing to give up on you. just because you shrug it off doesnt mean i will.

you asked for it.

crap.

i realized today that i'm completely terrified of change.

an opportunity came up for me to actually get my dream job, although it requires me moving about 8 hours away..which wouldnt be so bad really, except for the fact that i'd be going by myself and i literally know 1 MAYBE 2 people down there, depending on the exact area i'd be in.

although, if they put in that new high speed train that was just approved, that wouldnt be bad at all..

the scariest thing to me is that it might be my only chance to get down there. i dont feel ready for it but at the same time maybe its exactly what i need.

ask me what i really think.

i promise i will never be as selfish as you.

to who it may concern:

if you do not answer your phone, return calls, or reply to texts

throw your phone in the fucking street. you're wasting your money and my time.

x 2

it's incredibly difficult to love someone who doesn't love themself.

wow.

Definitition of Karma:
Through the law of karma, the effects of all deeds actively create past, present, and future experiences, thus making one responsible for one's own life, and the pain and joy it brings to him/her and others.

i've never believed anything more than this, and tonights findings proved it once again.

i don't believe in revenge, because karma can do much worse things than i ever could.

so..good luck with that.