lesson learned 1,000 times over

you can never trust anyone but yourself. never ever ever.
if you want something, you have to do it yourself. you can't rely on anyone else.

don't ask me why, ask yourself why. you'll get a more direct answer that way.

i wish my heart was still in this.

[do not want]

i think i've gotten to the point where i don't even care anymore.
that can't be good. i don't want that. i want to be proved wrong, just once.

how do you stop the inevitable?

lightbulb

sometimes you have to take a step back to figure out how to get forward.

i'm a little bit superstitious, so i try not to jinx myself.

the only way to not be disappointed is to not expect anything.

i have to admit, it would be nice to be suprised though.

..what?

life is so fucked up.
god must have a twisted sense of humor.

oh november..

this year's been a rough one. it's tested me in ways that i never would have wished for. it's hard for me to believe that i've lasted this long without breaking, but i remember a few times where i was very close.
its almost over though..lets hope we all make it, and that next year is better. because i don't know how much more my heart or my sanity can take.

it's called "tough love."

youre just being stubborn, fortunatly i can be just as stubborn as you.
i'm not sorry that i care, i'm not willing to give up on you. just because you shrug it off doesnt mean i will.

you asked for it.