Open.

I've always heard the saying,"you can't start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one." And frankly that book has been closed for a while, but today I realized that from time to time, I find myself drifting back into the book, and re-reading the same lines over and over...for no reason other than the fact that it's what I'm used to doing. The fact that I did it for such a long time, and planned to do it for much longer.. It became an unconscious routine for me. And I realized that I'm just torturing myself by doing so. I don't WANT to re-read that book anymore. That book is no longer part of my life and it will never be again. So today, I threw the book away, and promised myself that I will never look back again, and only move forward. I'll find a new book someday, and it will be SO much better for me. And I'm very much looking forward to it. :)

Happy that I finally accepted the fact that book is not the one I'll read forever.

About time.

Finally feeling like I'm able to let go of everything. As shitty as it is, I think this is what I've needed for a long time. 

Truth.

Never forget.

But there are some things you just know.

There's no way to explain this to anyone, and even if there were, there's no way they'd understand. But that's ok, I don't need anyone to get it, because I do and that's the important thing. It's a feeling that overwhelms every sense I have. It puts a calmness over my life and everything happening in it. I know everything will work out the way it's meant to, and I've never been so sure of something. There is no need to question it because I already know the answer. This is how I wish all situations could be solved.

There may come a time in life where you need to turn off a part of your heart for a while. Not because you don't want it anymore, but because you want to save it and not let anything tarnish it. It's the hardest thing you might ever have to do, but it's necessary for your personal growth and also for your future. For your life. And whoever you choose to have in your life. Things fall apart not only so better things can fall together, but also so that you can figure out who you are, which direction you're going to go in your life, and who will be involved. There are people that will let this take over their lives and eventually ruin them, and there are others who will take it for what it is and use it to make something better. I believe I am the ladder. I don't believe there are coincidences, or things that happen by chance. I believe everything boils down to fate and the only decisions we have in that, are which direction we take to get there, and how long it takes us. Everything happens for a reason, and sooner or later, you will know why.

Heart at war.

I don't have a choice,
But I still choose you.

Perfect.

I've never come across a saying that completes me more than this one. That's one thing I can be sure about, the woman I've been and the one I'm becoming is who I've always wanted to be...and that's not going anywhere, no matter what.

Keep hope alive.

There's too many signs that point to yes to even let no be an option.
<3