and sometimes,

you need a slap in the face in order to get back to reality.

well..you know

sometimes, you need to make waves.

secret.

have faith in me
cause there are things that i've seen i don't believe
so cling to what you know
and never let go
you should know
things aren't always what they seem.

two weeks late is better than never.

my resolution this year is to stop assuming. it just means trouble.

probably the best idea i've had in a while.

life is messy.

but at least it's not boring.
i dont even know if anyone reads these. they are just for me anyway, as reminders of events that have happened or ideas that i've had.

i have a really good life. great friends and an amazing family. i get a lot of chances to do things that most dont, and i'm very thankful for them. just so you know, i love my messy life.

hmm

i think it's a game. and if that's the case, i won't play.


k i'm going to seattle. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

ughhh

as much as i'm opposed to giving up, at this point it almost seems neccesary.

LISTEN

if you feel like you need to explain yourself, then do it. excuses don't count as explanations, though.

if not, then keep doing what you're doing now because it will get you nowhere.

trust me, i've seen it all before. i'm not a naive girl, i normally don't do second chances..but for some reason i did. don't expect it to happen again.

a friend recently told me, "we're too old for thirds." by which she meant that we are too old to give out third chances. and i couldn't agree with her more.

don't take this as a slap in the face unless you're going to be a coward about it..and if that's the case, then go ahead. this is mainly a reminder for me.

FUCK

give me a god damn break. please.

i can't take this anymore. what the hell is the matter with me.