so simple.

sometimes the thing that makes more sense than anything else is to stop trying to figure it out, and just let it happen.
i haven't felt this at ease in a long time. or this happy.
thank you.

hmm..

sometimes i find myself thinking about where i was at this point last year. or two years ago, or five. and then i think about where i'll be this time next year, or two..or ten.
there is nothing in my past that i want to go back to, although at the time i thought i knew where i was heading and where i'd end up.

the truth is, i have no idea where i'm going to be two months from now, let alone two years. i'm excited for the future even though i don't know what's in store for me. i just know that i won't be where i've been and that's a good thing in my eyes.

but it's not just about me, this includes others too. theres always going to be people who come in and out of your life, some you'll never talk to or see again, and some that will stick around forever. it all happens for a reason, whether you like it or not. and right now, i feel like i have a really good set of people in my life and i'm very grateful for them.

<3

oh crap.

sometimes my horroscope freaks me out.

Taurus:
Keep on trusting your instincts. They serve you well when you are trying to assess what's really going on. Your ability to judge a person's true motivations is generally on the money. Your inner voice will also help you spot a potential Soulmate.


ahhhh, i guess we'll see..

last.

i'd like to think that i'm a pretty logcial person. i know the difference between fairytale and real life. sometimes i may let my mind wander, but it all comes back to being a realist. i won't let myself fall for something that's not really there.
some people think that having a wall up is bad, but i feel like it's the only way to be safe. if you just let yourself get caught up in every little chance, you will be let down..it's inevitable.

i haven't always been this way, it's because of experience. i've learned from the past and try really hard to not make the same mistakes. there is kindof a pattern that has formed with my past relationships and i'm breaking it. i'd rather be alone then be in anything one-sided.

i'd rather be tough than be weak. but just because i'm strong doesn't mean i don't have feelings, and they can't get hurt. just because i'm stubborn doesn't mean i'll ignore a problem, i will call you out. although i think i've gotten to the point where instead of trying to fix something that's too broken, i just have to let it go. there's no point in being mad or upset about something that will never be resolved. sometimes, you just have to leave it alone..as shitty as that can be, you have to.
this took me far too long to write.

all at once.

sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

damn.

my heart isn't doing too well lately..

just once.

i don't even know where to start with this.
there are reasons i am the way that i am. there are reasons i don't trust easily.
PEOPLE LIE.
no excuses, no exceptions.
i learn from experience and live by what i've learned.
don't ask me why, don't expect me to change.
what you say and what you do contradict eachother.
don't lie to me unless you want me to find out. because i will.
don't take me for a fool, because you'll just be let down.

i hate always being right. i just want someone to prove me wrong.
just once.

interesting..in more that one way.

jaded: to make or become dull, worn-out, or weary, as from overwork or overuse.