Time to grow up!

TIME TO GET MY SHIT TOGETHER (and stop just talking about it.)

Ready.

I've come to a point in my life where I'm ready to take the next step into adulthood. Although I feel like I've come really far in the past few years, (managing money, being completely independent from anyone and succeeding at it, being self sufficent and working full time), I feel like there is one area that I may have skipped over or ignored..maybe unconciously, but nevertheless I've realized that I've come to the breaking point with it and I can choose to go one of two ways: step up and deal with it, or continue to ignore it. I'm choosing to deal with it and make some changes.The step that I seem to keep ignoring is being able to control my emotions. For the most part, I think I'm fine. But I know myself well enough to admit that there are times where I need to chill out. Life is not meant to be spent worrying. As I started to post this, I saw the last post I made...nearly a year ago...and it was about anxiety and stress and how I wasn't able to control it. That just makes me want to put this effort into effect even sooner. I don't want to look back in another year and feel the same as I do now.I need to relax more, stop stressing or worrying about things that aren't even valid. I realize it's a habit that I have carried with me for YEARS, and it's not going to go away overnight, but from this point forward I promise that I will be more aware of it, and that I will not allow it to take over my common sense.I am very lucky, and I know it. I have a good job for now, a great new apartment, and a wonderful man that makes my day every single day. He may not be perfect, but he is perfect for me. And I want to be that for him as well.And because of that, there's no need for me to have any kind of pessimistic attitude that I've noticed a little bit lately. So I'm done with it, because he means that much. No more insecurities, no more jealousy, worrying over nothing, assuming, anger, anxious or being sad for no reason.It doesn't happen often, but it happens enough. I'm putting an end to it now. Time to get back to being me, and not this fragile person I've become. Starting now.