last.

i'd like to think that i'm a pretty logcial person. i know the difference between fairytale and real life. sometimes i may let my mind wander, but it all comes back to being a realist. i won't let myself fall for something that's not really there.
some people think that having a wall up is bad, but i feel like it's the only way to be safe. if you just let yourself get caught up in every little chance, you will be let down..it's inevitable.

i haven't always been this way, it's because of experience. i've learned from the past and try really hard to not make the same mistakes. there is kindof a pattern that has formed with my past relationships and i'm breaking it. i'd rather be alone then be in anything one-sided.

i'd rather be tough than be weak. but just because i'm strong doesn't mean i don't have feelings, and they can't get hurt. just because i'm stubborn doesn't mean i'll ignore a problem, i will call you out. although i think i've gotten to the point where instead of trying to fix something that's too broken, i just have to let it go. there's no point in being mad or upset about something that will never be resolved. sometimes, you just have to leave it alone..as shitty as that can be, you have to.
this took me far too long to write.