i care too much.

i have a habit of driving myself crazy. i do it to myself, i'm aware that i do it and i absolutely hate it, but for some reason that hasn't stopped me from continuing to do so.
and i hate being sensitive, even though i try not to be. [that actually probably makes it worse.]
it's hard for me to open up to someone and when i do, i let things that shouldn't really matter get to me too easily. that's the main reason why i don't.
i hate misinterpreting things. i hate assuming..even though i've tried really hard to stop doing so, it still happens every once in a while. i hate having to guess.

things will get better because they have to.

life..

i'm on the fence whether or not to move forward or just stay where i am.
it's a weird feeling..like i'm torn in half and i want things that are on both sides but i can't have that, i have to choose one.
theres things happening around me that i'd like to be a part of, and i feel like at this point in my life, i SHOULD be a part of. but with my current situation it just isn't going to work.
i wish someone could just tell me what's going to happen or what to do because having to guess is just wearing me down.
i need something to change soon and all i can do is try to make it happen because sitting back and letting fate run it's course hasn't gotten me very far.

story of my life.

two steps forward, three steps back.never seems to fail.

this kindof thing just makes me want to go back to the way i was. not trusting anyone again, it's so much safer.