life..

i'm on the fence whether or not to move forward or just stay where i am.
it's a weird feeling..like i'm torn in half and i want things that are on both sides but i can't have that, i have to choose one.
theres things happening around me that i'd like to be a part of, and i feel like at this point in my life, i SHOULD be a part of. but with my current situation it just isn't going to work.
i wish someone could just tell me what's going to happen or what to do because having to guess is just wearing me down.
i need something to change soon and all i can do is try to make it happen because sitting back and letting fate run it's course hasn't gotten me very far.