Again.

I wish there was just a simple way to make myself feel better when I get into these funks...but nothing's ever simple. It doesn't happen as much as it used to, so I guess it just takes time..and I'm just tired of waiting.
I've spent too much of my life worrying about what MIGHT happen and how I can't control it, but that's just the thing that could save me...that I really don't have control over anything but myself, so why worry? I don't want to look back on my life 10 or 20 years from now and regret that I didn't live it to the fullest. What could make me relax and let it go? I have no idea, or I already would've done it.
Anxiety is one of the worst things that's ever happened to me, and while I hate it more than anything, it gives me insight to what I need to change and what's not good for me. Maybe in a year I'll look back on this and finally be free from it. I'm definitely moving in the right direction, there's just a lot of speed bumps in the way.
Anything good is never easy.
Goodnight.